I Know
I suck at life
No
Really
I suck at life
I mean I walk around
Constantly keeping an eye on my stomach
Because a bag
Dangling
Reminds me… shit happens
Literally
I get high
Everyday
High blood pressure
High sugar
High cholesterol
And somehow
I never get the munchies
My two feet
Are my mode of transportation
Causing me to still be low on gas
Craving for a fill up
Twenty on pump number me please
That should be enough to keep me going
Now
HealthTouched on that subject
Transportation
Traveled that road
Let’s see
Oh
My Love life
Met her
Dated her
Moved in with her
Different location almost every other year
But
Here comes the cocaine
Not literal
But the drug called unhappiness
Now
Don’t get it twisted
I was happy enough to make her my wife
Ummm…you know
Knock her up for rated PG readers
And have a daughter
But before this I felt something
Was different
Another version of this
Is floating somewhere
FacebookTikTok
But I believe bits and pieces are being fed
On a plate to some
Yes
I was unfaithful
And I’m not proud of it
At the same time however
I was not happy
About my relationship
My life
Myself
So when others gave me the
“You deserve this”
“ I could do that”
I fed into that emotion of being wanted
And gravitated away
I spoke with therapist after therapist
Only one…validated my feelings
Brought up a plan
Gave me purpose
And was willing to listen
That person is no longer my therapist
Get this
I feel
Like since I stopped speaking with her
Things were on a roller coasterRide
Heading on the last drop
Letting everyone off
Leaving me alone
With my thoughts
The voices in my head
Which led me
To write them down
And turn them into poetry
I…Like you
Turned first page
Meaning
You’re starting this journey
Hoping to find some peace
Using words
As a form of therapy
As if they are a person
With a Ph.D
Documenting details
Prescribing
Personification
Alliteration
Similes
To help you understand along the way
Trust me
It gets better from hereYou’ll see how words
Healed me
Gave me grace
Allowing me to clear my thoughts
Bringing me back to life
Removing the dirt from my
Shallow grave
Once again
Things will get better
Your journey
Has truly started
Just A Dad-A place for encouragement and support 
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